I poured my heart and soul into “Lost at Sea.” A collection of my inner dialogue, my diary if you will, released for the world to see. Such a scary feeling but I could not be happier. If you want to get to know me more intimately “Lost at Sea” is a must buy. In my poetry, I am free to be my most vulnerable.
I developed a love for writing at a very young age. I wasn’t very good. I wrote everyday. Everything I wrote was horrible, I was 7. I was desperate to impress my teachers. I always excelled in math but reading and writing was something I struggled with. I blame my ADHD. It is really hard for me to sit down and focus. When I write, something takes over me, and the words just flow.
At the age of 10, my mom bought me my first poetry book. It was written by Maya Angelou. I was obsessed. I finally found my thing. My void was filled. I noticed I could only write when I was in a firey mood. I was full of emotion as a kid so it help me process what I was feeling. My younger brother would sometimes sneak in and read my diary full of my poems which scared me, so I began writing poems while emotional, but burning them in a bon fire, doodling over them or turning them into snow flakes. This made me feel an instant release from what ever I wrote.
Fast forward to 22, I began to realize my poems were really good. I figured I couldn’t burn them anymore. I was so bored working a restaurant gig in the middle of a blizzard I wrote nearly every day. I felt so free. I was searching for this freeness in my mind for years. After everything I experienced with my health from mini strokes to seizures, I never thought I would have my mind back. I thought about writing a poetry book but I fearedbeing so vulnerable. I thought what if no one buys it or what if they do, what will they think. Then I thought I’m only writing now out of boredom, how can I keep this up when I move back to LA. Consistency was something I really struggled with but I have worked extremely hard to become more stable. I can be a bit implosive. I began turning my poems into videos. Shortly after college I launched a YouTube and blog. Although I knew very little about production or editing at the time I thought it would be a lot of fun. When I showed the videos to friends I was constantly confronted with comments “Don’t you sing? This seems more like a music video. Why don’t you just sing your poems.” At this time I was very insecure about my voice and it’s unique sound, but it sparked my interest in becoming an artist. In 2017, I wanted to create and live a life full of art. As social media grew authenticity and art were becoming a thing of the past. My goal was to inspire those around me without becoming solely focus on curating content for brand deals.
My career has taken so many twist and turns but I’m really happy with where I am right now. I’m so excited to keep growing in this space. I will make art until the day I die. I don’t care to choose a specific medium. I have tons of stories to tell, I look forward to sharing them with you. I’m already overwhelmed with your response and excitement. I can’t wait to share more. Click the link below to order your copy.